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"kerana kau memilih dirinya,bukan lah diriku.walau sehabis daya ku cuba yang terbaik untuk dirimu,namun tetap dia yang kau pilih"

Walau kumasih mencintaimu
Kuharus meninggalkanmu
Kuharus melupakanmu
Meski hatiku menyayangimu
Nurani membutuhkanmu
Kuharus merelakanmu

sekuat,seteguh mana perasaanku dengan ktk,tetap juak kita sik kan dpt bersama.yang mampu ku lakukan hanya lah mengingatimu dari jauh,mend0akan agar ktk bahagia bersama pilihan terbaikmu.
HAB, kmk rindu dengan ktk.Kmk harap ktk bahagia bersama dengan nya wanita yang ktk pilih.

selamat jak laaaa

selamat bertunang ngan sapa2 yg bertunang,selamat pengantin baru kepada sapa2 yg rasa nya jd pengantin baru..aku t0k bila la nak selamat gik....aiy000.....l0m jumpa manusia yg dpt bukak ati t0k kali..mun ada pun mesti x salah kunci...hahhaa..nasib laa....labu labu...apa nasib t0k.....

aHlan wahSahLan Ya RamadHan

ramadhan datang lagi.erm..kali ini aku kurang kit rasa suasana ramadhan..why?i als0 d0nt kn0w.aku merasakan macam sesuatu is missing.ntah...really d0n't kn0w what 0r who is it.funny sungguh.
m00d nak raya lagi laa....ntah la kenak ngan ku nek t0k.....apa-apa pun aku mem0h0n agar ALLAH mengurniakan ku petunjuk dan hidayah kasih sayang nya terhadap makhluk nya kepada ku agar terjawab persoalan ku selama ini.

c0nfused

when s0me0ne says he l0ve u n wanna be with u what w0uld u d0?when s0me0ne says he likes u, what will u say?if he l0ves u,will you l0ve him back?
l0ve makes me afraid.l0ve makes me happy but s0metime it makes me cry......arghhhhhhhh....y it must be complicated and confusing?is it b0ut the curse that i w0nt be happy ever after???please!i need a happy ever after in my life.

iPh0ne!

is quiet c0mplicated t0 use an iph0ne i think..c0z I've g0t 1 n its make me crazy....yesterday it was jammed n I'm t0tally blurred b0ut it n d0n't kn0w what t0 d0 when i can switch it 0ff 0r take 0ff the battery.lucky thanks t0 the techn0l0gies .....using youtube, i can learn h0w t0 fix the pr0blem....Thanks g0d!!! hahahaa..s0 m0ral 0f the st0ry is, there's a l0t 0f useful inf0rmati0n in the youtube!!!!!!

i HaTe tHis ScH00l!!!!!

i d0n't kn0w what t0 say.....really hate t0 be in here.really sucks here......n all the bad things are all in here.........full 0f hate, full 0f sellfish pe0ple....i hate t0 be here.

bikin panas itu 0lang

i'm back!!!!!!!after a quite l0ng j0urney t0 pandan,mana itu???dekat lundu maa..........haiyaaa.....bleh2 la ketahanan mandik d sia....kl 5.30 pagi dh terjun lam laut...waaa........aku pun x sangka aku m0lah kedak yaa.....sepanjang hari ya aku nang mandik laut jak kerjaa.......nak la malam lu peng x pat nak mamam brg2 nak d bbq..arghh..rugi da jak.........

alkisah hr t0k plak....tempa nyawa ku ngan s0met yaaa.......geram giller eyh.......p pa2 pun aku dh membuktikan yang aku mampu nak m0lah kerja yaaa...hahahahaaaa.....padan mukaa.....dh la da 0rg ya main khianat....ceh...x paaa....nasib 0rg teraniaya kedak aku sll d bela bah...ada2 jk la yg mauk nak tlg ku.....

Cupids Chokehold

(s0ng that remind 0f my b0y friend)

Take a look at my girlfriend
She’s the only one I got (ba ba da da)
Not much of a girlfriend
I never seem to get a lot (ba ba da da, ba ba da da)

It’s been some time since we last spoke
This is gonna sound like a bad joke
But momma I fell in love again
It’s safe to say I have a new girlfriend

And I know it sounds so old
But cupid got me in a chokehold
And I’m afraid I might give in
Towels on the mat my white flag is wavin’

I mean she even cooks me pancakes
And Alka Seltzer when my tummy aches
If that ain’t love then I don’t know what love is

We even got a secret handshake
And she loves the music that my band makes
I know I’m young but if I had to choose her or the sun
I’d be one nocturnal son of a gun

(ba ba da da, ba ba da da)

Take a look at my girlfriend
She’s the only one I got (ba ba da da)
Not much of a girlfriend
I never seem to get a lot (ba ba da da, ba ba da da)

Take a look at my girlfriend
She’s the only one I got (ba ba da da)
Not much of a girlfriend
I never seem to get a lot (ba ba da da, ba ba da da)

It’s been awhile since we talked last and I’m tryin’ hard not to talk fast
But dad I’m finally thinkin’ I may have found the one
Type of girl that will make you way proud of your son

And I know you heard the last song about the girls that didn’t last long
But I promise this is on a whole new plane
I can tell by the way she says my name (ba ba da da)

I love it when she calls my phone
She even got her very own ringtone
If that ain’t love then I don’t know what love is (ba ba da da)

It’s gonna be a long drive home but I know as soon as I arrive home
And I open the door take off my coat and throw my bag on the floor
She’ll be back into my arms once more for sure

Take a look at my girlfriend
She’s the only one I got (ba ba da da)
Not much of a girlfriend
I never seem to get a lot (ba ba da da, ba ba da da)

She’s got a smile that would make the most senile
Annoying old man bite his tongue
I’m not done
She’s got eyes comparable to sunrise
And it doesn’t stop there
Man I swear
She’s got porcelain skin of course she’s a ten
And now she’s even got her own song
But movin’ on
She’s got the cutest laugh I ever heard
And we can be on the phone for three hours
Not sayin’ one word
And I would still cherish every moment
And when I start to build my future she’s the main component
Call it dumb call it luck call it love or whatever you call it but
Everywhere I go I keep her picture in my wallet like here

Take a look at my girlfriend
She’s the only one I got (ba ba da da)
Not much of a girlfriend
I never seem to get a lot (ba ba da da, ba ba da da)

Take a look at my girlfriend
She’s the only one I got (ba ba da da)
Not much of a girlfriend
I never seem to get a lot (ba ba da da, ba ba da da)

here c0me da hist0ry

huhuhuhu.........really bored t0day. s0 after tired watching tv,aku pun bukak la FB.....then suddenly i remember my 0ld sch00l mags......that's da 0nly reta peninggalan dr zaman sek0lah menangah ku(zaman br nak angkat dara,zaman chenta pertama ku mula muncul,zaman aku x berapa nak kurus n pa2 jak yg sezaman ngan nya la)
melihat kembali wajah2 geng2 sama sk00l tym ya make me wonder......h0w are they n0w?maybe m0st 0f them dh jd mak 0rang, bapak 0rang n maybe dh jadi nenek 0rg(bagi yg kawen ngan 0rg yg dh ada pakej la.....)eventh0ugh lamak dh aku meningalkan zaman sek0lah menengah yaa......p sa mcm baru jak aku abis sk00l...huhuhuhuuuu....still da perasaan budak remaja gik la ku t0k.
so many mistake that i wish i didn't d0 at that time.but they always says that "learn from u'r mistake" maybe some mistake I've got the lesson but others????nah.....others ya memang susah nak cakap laaa........but 1 thing that i w0n ever2 regrade is "alhamdulilah aku diberi hidayah n insyaALLAH akan mati as a muslim"amin......


*sayang album aku zaman sk00l ya dh kenak curi leh pencuri nak bengap tahap gaban....mun sik dapat la ku upl0ad dlm tok...

a l0ng day early starting day

huhuhu......last night aku mimpi rim keytaku yg ku syg2 yg jd isu ku ngan kambing ya kenak curi!!!!nasib bet "0h tidak aku bermimpi sahaja"(mun mena2 tek nang nanggis x beraik mata la aku)
awal2 pagi dah aku bangun sebl0m subuh...pa nak g sk00l gik hr t0k tek(caka juak, paksa trn keja hari sabtu yg nyaman n sej0k k bangun akher t0k)sampe2 kat sk00l kerja aku n azna dh d take 0ver leh student...(apa lagik tumbuh memanjang la tanduk mek 2)huhuhuhhuhuhuhh.........tengahari bla dh balit dr sk00l g la ke suatu destinasi ngan bed0t ..nak mencari limu tek kata kan..(sak jak ilmu d dada pen0h jak)hahahahahahaha
setel sigek kerja ya....tekaya2 la mek 2 da seven mile(sempat juak ku menyambar sigek baju)then bla dah bye2 gan bed0t lu la gu g jumpa ngan dak member abang2 n kakak2 g mandik swimming p00l d samarahan sia....nang bleh tahan laaa.......sampe badan ku yg putih x berapa nak melepak t0k dh jadi tinted gelap kit dlm 25%.......p minggu depan da event nak dasyat gik yaaaa....."j0urney t0 panadan!"best2..harap2 la aku dpt bep0ya2 d pantey tym ya..jgn jak da kejadian berdarah jak tym yaaa.........p tym t0k aku nang letih laaaaaa......tambah2 gik bla limpas umah ehem2 tek ku nangga da kemah......lagik la aku suspen....sapakah yang jd pengantin ya????nya ka????0h n000000000........

i wanna d0 sumthing in my liFe

t0day i had alm0st all day in da h0use.huhuhuhuhu...(cuti maaa)feel really lazy t0 wake up this m0rning(maybe my bed is very very super c0mf0rtable t0 sleep at)t0day i spend my tym searching f0r university that 0ffer an interesting courses.huhuhuhuuhuhuu..g0t da m00d t0 c0ntinue my study.feel like wanna be a student again seem that i'm still y0ung n single huhuhuhuuuu....well they always says that "grab the chance while you can". maybe it's better for me t0 make my life busy again t0 less think b0ut some people.hurmmmmm.....hope i could.

eVerYtHings tHat happend g0t a hidden agenda in da end

t0day i realized that all bad things that happened t0 me was actually a bless.kira rahmat la tek. bila ku pikir2 balit tym ku drive pergi ke taman puteri petang yg jem tadik,aku sedar semua ya....putus tunang, meet wif kambing, d pr0p0sed beberapa kali yg aku reject n then i meet wif sum0ne yg membuatkan aku sengal n dalam masa yang sama hard t0 explain la perasaan yaaa.....fr0m there aku sedar, apa yg aku ada n0w adalah hasil dari pengalaman aku sebel0m t0k...that is da m0st valuable things that i have right n0w.bef0re this i always keep c0mplaining why am i always getting hurt by pe0ple that i l0ve.why am i keep crying when i'm pelling d0wn, why are my life suck.but n0w i really thing th0se are stupid questi0n that i ever asked t0 myself n g0d.fr0m n0w 0n i'm trying t0 be grateful wif da thing that i had.ALLHAMDULILAH

when it keep coming back t0 me

lately he always keep c0mming back me,said that he felt guilty f0r making me like this f0r all this while eventh0ugh i d0n't have any issues 0r gave him any reas0n t0 d0 wr0ng things t0 me.
s0 "nasib la Labu" i'm really tired f0r being u'r pers0nal cl0wn anym0re.t0 make u happy when u'r sad n felling d0wn.s0 back 0ff!step 0ff!0r whatever da words is.i'm really tired t0 be like this.at least give a chance t0 be happy wif da life i've ch0sed and da guy that i fall in l0ve wif. let me enj0y my life when i still can enj0y it.

sum time

sum time, aku rasa nak lari jak dr life aku nek t0k...aku b0ring dengan keadaan yang membuatkan aku serba salah.aku dh b0san nak menjaga perasaan 0rang, aku dh b0san untuk mengecewakan hati yang benar2 sayang ngan aku.aku inginkan ketenangan dan kebahagian yang nampaknya amat sukar untuk aku per0lehi kerana aku sering di datangi 0leh mimpi2 yang memainkan jiwa ku.aku dh letih untuk bangun di pagi hari mengenangkan mimpi yang semamangnya sik akan menjadi kenyataan.yang memang agak mustahil(namun ALLAH maha kuasa yang menentukan j0d0h dan maut hambanya)tapi apa2 pun aku nang dah kepak!!!!!!!!kepak bermimpikan 0rang yang telah pergi n mustahil akan kembali gik bersama ngan aku.

jUsT waNNa sh0w u guYs

kali t0k ku saja jak nak tunjuk gambar ngan tak 0wang....f0r me it is a nice view....s0, h0pe u guys enj0yed it!!!!!!!!!

aku sa nak ngamuk jak

pagi pagi dah marah dh ku....eeee....kenak la kambing ya suka nak nyuruh ku sakit ati......jaha6 juak nya ya.........lak ku gik kenak serang 0rg lak.....nya yg m0lah hal aku yg kenak.....t0k dh kes lain 0rang makan nangka lain 0rang yg kenak getah t0k.......nasib bet la aku gik begetah gik hahahahahaa..........harap-harap la idup ku dapat tenang n aman damai pas t0k....sik sabar ku nak menamatkan segala-galanya supaya aku dpt idup n0rmal.jiwa d main bah.gila sik?

saTurDay, saBtu, hR EnaM

hr t0k nang sa mcm b0ring, nak demam, nak muntah semua pun aku jak...dh la projek mlm t0k kenak kensel..eee....sedeh ku eyh........balit awal la ku kak functi0n ngan member club mlm t0k...huhuhuu.x pa laa....kali ku sa ku nak g jauh minggu depan.....b0ring la ujung minggu kt kch jak2...hueh..nak g merantau g tempat kazen ku kali..p paksa la ku b0dek my grandma t0k ...
tadik my sis msg me..huhuhu...sa nak ngamuk juak bla ku bc msg nya ya...ni nak tempa ku ngan miak pembulak nak mati leput yaa....mun muka nya ensem x juak hal....eeee...ada ati nak memperkotak katik kan perasaan adik ku yaaa...ng0k sungguh laaa itu lelaki yg itam n x tinggi yaaaaa.... x paaaa...setiap kejahatan ada balasannya......."karma will come n bite u in the ass bebeh"

Rainy DaY

seminggu t0k nang hari ujan jak....jiwa ku pun sa mcm nak ujan juak dah..........jiwa kacau,jiwa kelajuan,jiwa g0yang2 palak......arghhhhh.....ingin gilak ku nak lari dr semua t0k......aku hr2 d0a agar idup aku aman ,tenang n bahagia dunia akhirat.t0k dah nak bis dah bulan 2 dah......dapat nak ka ku mencapai target 20.10 ku yaaa.......p aku sa macam dh malas jak nak teruskan terget ku ta bab jiwa ku k0s0ng walaupun aku c0ba aku usaha.....

kunyang

h0h0h0000....sempat wak ku ngepau adik ku tek...mamam pizza hut kat desa ilmu t0k....uhuhuhuuu...suka2....nang makan jak keja ku hr t0k eyh........

27 years in this w0rld

really dh 27 thn dah ku bernafas d bumi ALLAh t0k....dr kecik sampe la tym t0k....27 thn 1 hari aku hidup......byk benda yg ku jumpa n aku belajar dari pengalaman ya..but sumtym n alm0st everytym aku jatuh n bangun semula .dh lumrah kadang2 aku ingin sekali lari dr semua t0k......terlalu letih gilak dh......n sumtym aku mengharapkan sum0ne can save me

fr0m da tingkap 0f haber view....

sungai sarawak tym petang2

bangunan DUN baru berlatarbelakangkan gunung santub0ng

cl0seup bangunan ya

waterfr0nt yg jd tempat sh00ting cyta senari0 nak da winter s0nata ya

t0k la james br00ke bistro tp b0b af2 d berik kezutan fail ya..hahahahhaa

a bad starting

sumtym darah daging dimpun kn m0lah kita menangis,sumtym darah daging ta pun kn mengkhianati kita,sumtym darah daging ta pun kan membuang kita.n sumtym darah daging dimpun kan menyebabkan kita menangis sampe kita dh x mampu gik nak ngeluar aik mata.semua atas hasutan 0rg ketiga.patut kah aku jadi anak derhaka semata2 kerana aku hidup menumpang d rumah ya?ada kah aku bukan anak kandung daknya???(memang pun aku anak tiri)arghhhhhhhh..........sumtym i feel like i wanna g0 far away fr0m them n never c them again.didn't they realize dad what i've been doing for them????n0t en0ugh ka????b0c0z 0f darah daging dipum chenta ku terhalang.bec0s 0f i have da same DNA pep0le misjudge me....y have i bear all da sin from them?apa salah ku????y me???????

0Mg 2010

chiohhhhh.....2010 dh eyh....sperti beysa aku nang duduk umah jak tym mlm nu year ya....0wang len gag0 jak bbq ngan member2 0 fmly..aku gag0 juak lah tid0w.....huhuhu..nang dh kejadian mlm nu year ku mcm ya....dh la every year h0me al0ne jak.....sedih ku........tauk t0wk harap2 la ku dpat k*&#% hahahhahahaha............p nasib bet juak la ku x da kuar mlm ya.....nang giller r0dbl0ck n ambush sana sini eyh...gila eyh.......dasat2.........mudahan taun t0wk ati ku kuat n keras sak x kenak buli n d perk0tak katik leh 0wang gik...